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CHAPTER ONE
Los Angeles, CA
S TRIDING INTO HER
high-rise office, Charlene threw the files onto
the
cognac colored desk. She was tired and
frustrated from her meeting with the
producers and director of her Japanese
debut drama, Blu’s Diary.
If she had to do one more rewrite on the
movie’s script, she would scream.
Still, no amount of rewrite pissed her
off more than the producers’ latest jab at
her patience. They wanted a different
Asian actor to play the title role. Some
twenty-something, Japanese pop star
looking to bring his creative talents into the
United States and use
her televised mini-series to do it. All
they were concerned
about was his ability to guarantee good
rating numbers. What about what was
best for her character, the domineering
rock star, Blu?
This went against everything Charlene had
envisioned when they contracted
her novel to make into the first Japanese
drama series to be done in both English
and Japanese and to air simultaneously in
both countries. They lied. There was
no way the Japanese
artiste they chose was powerful enough vocally
to pull off
the original songs she wrote for her
tragic hero. She had anticipated a much older
and more experienced actor. Now, she
would have to settle for some spoiled rich
kid with looks and
connections.
“You okay, Charlie?”
A deep male voice cut through her
thoughts. Charlene turned with a start to
find her International Manager, Abe Goda
standing in the entrance.
“Abe, you promised me this wouldn’t
happen!” She started in on him
immediately, her own frustrations
uppermost in her mind. “I can’t believe you’re
allowing them to pull this stunt on me at
the last minute. What happened to the
actors that I’ve wasted months
researching? What the blazing hell was that all
about if they already made their
choice?”
He pushed his hands deep into his pockets
with a resigned sigh. “I’m truly
sorry that you had to find out this way.
I had hoped to get to you first, but I had
sincerely anticipated changing their
minds before you found out.”
“You should have tried
harder.”
“Charlie, I do see the logic in employing
a well-known Japanese name in the
music industry; it makes good business
sense. People will not only tune in to see
Kane in his first serious drama, but the
soundtrack will certainly fly off the
shelves. Isn’t that important also, to
have your music appreciated?”
“The tracks I wrote for this project are
the best I’ve done yet, not to
mention,
the first new songs I’ve written since my
husband died.” Charlene defended her
skills with all the fierce tenacity of a
mother defending her child. “I assure you
the music will promote itself no matter
who I choose to sing
them!”
“I can’t believe you let them walk all
over me in that meeting. Damn it!
This
should have been
my decision.”
“I understand how you feel Charlie and no
one purposely doubts your
abilities. Nonetheless, until you can
completely produce your own films, you
have to understand this is how
negotiations are conducted not only in the States,
but in Japan also,” Abe reasoned. “These
investors especially want a sure thing
considering this script is dealing with
such a taboo subject as an interracial
relationship between a Japanese male and
an African-American female.”
She had to give Abe that one. “True,”
Charlene grudgingly agreed. “It’s my
first internationally distributed film
and if it hadn’t been for your connections and
support, I wouldn’t have gotten this far
with these eastern producers.”
Abe smiled in understanding knowing that
hadn’t been easy for her.
“Still,” She waved her forefinger at him.
“I’m not an idiot, the only reason
they chose to produce
Blu’s Diary is that it’s a long standing
bestseller in the
States and also over the past 3 years has
received an unprecedented record of a
150 million yen in sales.”
“Your point, Charlie?”
“My point
is it showed them there is an audience for these types of
love
stories and they realized they needed to
swipe it up before someone else did. That
alone should give me more leeway in
making decisions around here!”
“But you can’t guarantee your name alone
can pull in the ratings in Japan,
Charlie. You also forget that on its
début, your book was protested in Japan.
It
brought you to everyone’s attention and
the Japanese youth love controversy, so
they rushed out to purchase it because of
the hype. After that, critics took notice
and realized you had a really touching
story and you did it in a way that wasn’t
ridiculing or disrespecting Japanese
culture. Still, you know these things take
time.”
Abe continued to reason. “The second
selling point,” he hesitated. “Is your
history during the time you lived in
Japan. The local media knew if they openly
spoke about your book, then they would
also have an excuse to bring up the
scandal that forced you to return to the
states.”
Charlene remained silent. She closed her
eyes and rubbed her temple. Would
that always come back to haunt her? As
long as she couldn’t stay away from the
country and culture she’d fallen in love
with, the pain would always be there.
“Exactly.” Abe stated, seeing her silence
as a form of agreement.
“Okay, but I genuinely believed the
investors liked my idea about causing a
media buzz by going from city to city in
search for the next big Japanese star.”
“The idea was excellent; the increased
expense to pull off such a venture was
not. You don’t have the available budget,
sweetheart.” In his usual calm and
soothing way he added, “I do understand
you’re upset Charlie, but you have to
understand where these gentlemen are
coming from. They are investing a huge
amount of capital into this project.” He
removed his hand from his pocket and
pushed his gold-rimmed glasses up onto
the bridge of his nose. “And it gives
them the right to have whomever they want
to play the lead.”
“Maybe I should use my own personal
resources to make sure that I get what
I want and what’s best for the
script.”
“Charlie, now you’re deliberately being a
hefty pain in my ass.” Abe shook
his head and muttered softly under his
breath before replying to her statement.
“Simply put, you
do not have the right to tell them who should
be in this drama.”
Abe rubbed his chin. “As far as applying
your personal funds, I cannot and will
not agree to that. It’s a huge risk that
you simply cannot afford to take, at least a
quarter of a million if not more, and in
the end Kane will still play Blu.”
“As my manager, I can’t believe you’re
convincing me to do this,” Charlene
grumbled.
“As your manager,” Abe put additional stress on the
last word. “I’m simply
looking out for your best interests. I’m
not as close to this project as you are, so
therefore I am as they say, detached. Not
to mention, my dear Charlie-chan that
it’s an excellent idea.” He paused.
“Think of the bigger picture, Charlie, of the
bridge between cultures. In the end you
will be saying, ‘Abe, you’re a genius’
as usual.”
She softened a little and gave her
manager a half smile. As always, Abe knew
the right things to say, and he was just
as good dealing with other people as he
was with her. Still, it rankled a bit.
Blu’s Diary wasn’t like her other works,
this
one was personal.
Abe closed the space between them and
towered over her. “Charlene, you’ll
be the first African-American woman to
have her film produced and directed by
several well-known Japanese filmmakers in
the business. Having a highly
recognized Japanese leading man and a
popular African American leading
female to be premiered on Japanese and
American television is a major
accomplishment. Do you eventually want to
ruin this opportunity for more Black
writers and actors over what…creative
differences?”
“What if my movie flops because they cast
some pretty boy who couldn’t act
his way out of a wet paper bag? I’m
finished, that’s what? I’ve worked too many
years rebuilding my name and reputation
and you’re telling me to ride it all on
some spoiled pop idol!”
“Come on, Charlie. Do you really think I
would sit back and let him or
anyone else ruin the reputation,
WE, have built?” Abe’s temper flared,
something
that seldom happened, which gave her
pause. Abe didn’t yell. He was Japanese
to the core, and he took pride in his
ability to defuse situations without being
overly emotional. “I’ve put my ass on the
line for this too,” he reminded her
harshly.”
“Abe…”
“No, Charlene, you
listen
for a moment,” he interrupted. “I’m
the one who
brought your novel to the attention of
the financiers and I’m
the one that
convinced them to allow us to film it and
air it in my country. They
are the ones
who made it possible and as much as it
behooves us we owe them. What part of
this situation did you not understand
going in?”
His dark eyes took in her face as he
continued, “I know you want the best
showcase for your work, but, Charlie,
they should at least be allowed a chance
to recoup their investment and Kane is
the security blanket they want to greenlight
the
project.”
The throbbing vein in the middle of her
forehead felt like a thousand
jackhammers.
“Give me the word right now and I will
trash the entire project if that is what
you want me to do.” Abe placed his hands
on her shoulders with a deep sigh. “Do
you really want that or are you trying to
sabotage your dreams again? You can’t
live in the past. It’s not success that
killed your husband. It was his only
foolishness.”
She glared at him. “Don’t bring that up
again, I’m not in the mood for you to
play analyst tonight.”
“Okay, then can you at least hold your
judgment until you actually meet the
guy in person?”
“Why should I meet him? They’ve already
made their choice in the matter.”
“Charlie—” Abe massaged the back of his
neck.
“Abe, look, I’m not completely clueless
about this young man,” she
interrupted releasing a long breath,
hoping it would help the tension subside. “I
know who Kane is and I even have a couple
of his CD’s, but he is a Japanese pop
star and my
character, Blu, is a Japanese rock icon
who was an orphaned street
kid who hustled his way to stardom
through sex and blackmail. Blu has to be
edgy, not squeaky-clean.”
“I know this.” Abe folded his arms across
his wide chest.
“Yeah, so tell me how the hell he’s going
to pull this off with his reputation?
What does he know about growing up
unloved on the streets of Osaka or doing
what Blu did to survive?”
“How do you know Kane can’t handle the
role Charlie?”
“Hmm, for starters, that squeaky-clean
image will make it impossible for the
Asian public to separate the pop
sensation from my jaded rock star.”
“Again, it’s not just your film or your
dream, Charlene,” Abe reminded her
frankly. “I assume you’re judging Kane
solely on his public persona. Shouldn’t
you hold judgment until you’ve met him
face to face? He—”
“I don’t want
to meet him,” she interrupted stubbornly. “He’s just
another
Japanese guy with a handsome face and a
bunch of squealing fan girls who
worship the ground he treads
on.”
Abe raised an eyebrow in that “are-you
kidding” way that infuriated her.
“Excuse me, you did say you own
all of his CD’s?”
“Don’t look at me that way. I said I had
a couple, not ‘all’!”,”
she blurted,
scarcely aware of the volume of her own
voice. “I believe this kid has s ugoi—
awesome talent for writing songs and a
great voice as cute as he is, but it’s not
going to be enough.”
“That “kid” is twenty-four by the way,”
Abe pointed out ironically. “You
know, it’s not like you to judge a person
before meeting them. Why is the thought
of Kane playing Blu rubbing you the wrong
way?”
Charlene glanced out onto the glimmering
night of Los Angeles. “Let’s just
say I’m familiar with the type—handsome
and rich Asian men who get bored and
want to stir things up a bit.”
“ You, of all individuals, stereotyping and
judging someone?”
She cut him a glance that would have
melted a weaker man, but not her
trusted friend and agent; he knew about
all the closets that housed her skeletons.
Still, Charlene was more than sure that Kane would be far
from the last of their
demands.
Her face took on a faraway look. “Trust
me, everything Jason touches he
ruins it with his
selfishness.”
“Jason?” He asked cautiously. “So that’s
what this is all about. Something
about Kane reminds you of
Jason.”
A soft gasp escaped her. She hadn’t meant
for that to get out. Charlene knew
in her heart Abe was right. She was
making hasty judgments based on nothing
but her personal baggage.
“Abe, if you don’t mind I need to be
alone.” Her words were shakier than she
would have liked.
His dark eyes shimmering with worry, but
always the gentleman, he said,
“You understand I’m here for you no
matter what, Charlie.”
“I know.” She forced a smile to alleviate
his concern. “I’m just feeling a bit
overwhelmed by it all, but I’ll be fine
after I get some much needed rest.”
“Are you sure? We can have dinner at that
authentic Japanese restaurant you
like so well.” Abe winked. “I’ll even
allow you to practice your Japanese with
the waiter and order for the both of us.
As a matter of fact, I’m feeling so
generous I’ll even let
you pay for the meal.”
“Whoa,” Charlene chuckled, some of the
oppressiveness she felt lifting a
little. “Now, I know you’re feeling sorry
for me because not once in the eight
years we’ve known one another, have you
ever allowed me to pay for a meal.”
“Hey, a sharp man understands when to set
pride aside.” His thin lips spread
into an easy smile.
“I don’t need practice with my Japanese
anyway; there are just some things
one never forgets, thank you. Now go, I
need to think about those rewrites they
requested me to do with Kane in
mind.”
“So you’ve changed your mind about him.”
Abe took in the stubborn set of
her lips before the last word was out of
his mouth and realized she hadn’t quite
conceded.
“I didn’t say that,” she retorted. “I
just need to be prepared just in case they
don’t see reason.”
“Of course. Still, I have all the faith
in the world in you, Charlie. Oyasuminasai.”
Charlene removed the stylish Misook
jacket and placed it on the back of her
office chair before taking a seat behind
the desk. With a swishing sound of silk
stockings, she kicked off her heels and
crossed her legs. It had been a long and
tiring day of meeting after meeting, and
she was finally able to release a deep
sigh of relief that it was
over.
Yawning, she looked at the clock on her
desk. It was almost nine-thirty. I
should take my butt home!
Not that she had anything to rush home
for and she
did keep rock star hours, even if she
didn’t live the rock star lifestyle. Another
aspect of her past that hadn’t
changed.
She flipped through the stack on her desk
and saw there were at least twenty
pages of rewrites to do before turning in
for the night. Charlene figured she might
as well work from home, where she could
be comfortable. Feeling bitchy, she
started to pick up the telephone and call
Sharon, her assistant to meet her at the
house, then changed her mind. No, she wouldn’t be that bitchy
just because she
didn’t have a personal life, it didn’t
mean Sharon didn’t either. At that moment,
Charlene wondered how many of her readers
would be surprised that in spite of
the hot stories she wrote, she was
actually sleeping with a laptop and an array of
reference books. Most of the time, she
didn’t even bother to remove them from
the bed as she nodded off to
sleep.
The phone rang. Instantly startled, she
waited for the service to pick it up. The
shrill grew more persistent as she
continued to wait for the service to pick up. It
took another five rings before she
realized Sharon must have forgotten to transfer
calls to the answering
service.
Cursing under her breath she picked up
the receiver. “Hello, Charlene Alfred,
here.”
“Why are you against my playing Blu?” His
directness was surprising, since
the Japanese tended to be anything but.
Even though he had an accent, his
English was clear enough for her to hear
he was genuinely pissed.
“Kane, I presume.”
“You presume correctly.”
“Well calling me like this isn’t helping
your case any.”
“What will? You see, I want this part
Alfred-san,” he said. “I know I can
play
this man exactly as you have created him.
Do you know how rare it is for a
manuscript to come along from your
Hollywood that doesn’t stereotype the
Asian male?”
“As a matter of fact I do.” Charlene said
with a bit more asperity than she
intended. Who was he to school
her on Hollywood’s penchant for
stereotyping?
Though Kane was not the enemy and in all
fairness, he would be a fool to pass
up a role like Blu, Charlene didn’t like
having her creative wings clipped just
because someone had more clout than she
did. This was her baby and she wanted
to see it done right.
“I apologize for being so rude to you,
Mr. Kane, but it’s been a long day and
I really need to get home.”
“I suspect your husband is waiting for
you.”
Her eyebrows lifted in surprise. Was he
fishing for information in regards to
her personal life?
“You’d suspect wrong, but it is too late
here to be calling,” she reminded him
once again.
“Forgive me for disturbing you at such a
late hour. It’s morning here and after
my manager called and told me you had
doubts about me…I want to know why.”
Charlene heard the genuine sincerity in
his voice and sighed deeply. He
deserved her objective opinion. “Look,
I’ve heard you sing and I’ve seen your
live performances. You are very
talented.”
“Thank you.” She could hear the wryness
in his tone.
“But you only appeal to hormonal teen
girls. I just don’t see the rawness in
you that my character needs to
possess.”
“Please, allow me to be as
straightforward as you have been, Alfred-san.
First, you know nothing about me as a
man. What you have seen is a
wellorchestrated
persona created by my management team. My
long term contract
with Takusa Entertainment Group is coming
up for renewal and finally I have the
possibility of becoming the musician and actor I’ve always
wanted to be.”
“I understand what you’re saying,” and
she did sympathize with him. “But
the problem is still your image. If you
fail to sway the viewers, then it will all be
for nothing.”
“I know
I can play the part convincingly.” Charlene heard the passion
and
desire in his tone and surprisingly it
warmed her. Still, that wasn’t enough.
“Mr. Kane, I don’t want to risk a
backlash of angry Japanese boycotting the
film because their non-threatening pop
icon is portraying a boozing uninhibited
musical genius.”
“Look, Charlene, I will not let that
happen to you or your film,” he assured
her.
A brief chill ran though her body as he
spoke her name. A strange since of
familiarity made her close her eyes in
memory. Jason. Charlene
shook her head
and realized she was too exhausted to be
having this conversation.
“Tsukareta,” she whispered rubbing her temples.
“Mr. Kane, I don’t want the
story to be ignored because of the media
frenzy surrounding you and with that
being said, I seriously think we should
be ending this discussion.”
“I know you’re
tired and I humbly apologize for being a pest. However,
I
believe, regardless of the crude side of
Blu, I can add a vulnerability to his
dominating character, make his
unfortunate decisions understood and forgiven.”
“Mr. Kane—”
“Just call me, Kane.”
Charlene was at the end of her patience.
“Whatever!”
“I know what I’m talking about. In our
culture when one sees you are
sincerely repentant of your behavior, it
can be forgiven graciously and without
regret.”
He was correct. That had been her main
concern and the concern of the
producers, even though she had rewritten
several scenes in consideration of the
cultural differences of what the Japanese
found acceptable.
She tried a new tactic. “I read that you
were born into a wealthy family which
tells me you have no idea how to portray
Blu. I’m not looking for someone who
can act this part, but someone who may
have lived this part in
some way.”
“You are shouting at me”
Was that humor she heard in his
voice?
“I…I’m not yelling,” she said defensively
before realizing she was indeed
speaking loudly. In her family if you
weren’t loud, your point of view got lost in
the pool of forceful personalities. “I’m
just—”
“Excited about the script and the music
you’ve written for Blu’s
Diary.” He
completed the sentence. “I understand the
passion and the message of your story.
That’s why I want to do it and I’m not
going to give up so easily.”
“So then you understand what this project
means to me, how proud I am
about it.”
“As you should be, Charlene.” He said
softly. “I read Blu’s Diary on a
train
ride between engagements three years ago
and I never forgot it. There was
something about Blu that felt familiar to
me and I genuinely believe if this book
were to become a movie, it would be a
sign for me to change the course of my
career.”
“A sign?”
“When I heard Blu’s Diary was being
adapted into a film I knew this was the
sign I’ve been waiting for because I
believe working on this film is going to
change my life completely.”
Charlene couldn’t deny she was touched by
his words and surprised that he
had actually read her book. Knowing he
spent three years contemplating the
possibility stunned her. Oddly, she felt
more relaxed as she slid down in the chair
and crossed her feet on the
desk.
“I must admit that your reading my book
caught me by surprise.” She grinned
in the phone as if he could see her and
caught herself. The smile disappeared.
“No, thank you for being a wonderful
writer. I’ve kept up with your career
since I was seventeen and actually, I’ve
read all seven of your books. Blu’s
Diary
was my favorite because your lead was
Asian and I was pleased.”
“I don’t get too many guys admitting they
read my stuff. Not straight guys
anyway,” she chuckled. “You
are straight, aren’t you?” Charlene
couldn’t
believe she asked him that
question.
“As opposed to being crooked, you
mean.”
“No, I meant…never mind what I meant.”
What did it matter if he was gay
or not? It wasn’t any of her business.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have asked that.”
“I was teasing. I don’t mind, ask me
anything,” he assured her. “Regardless
of any fan-based rumors you have heard
romantically linking me to men I have
collaborated with or members of my band,”
he laughed. “I am not gay.”
“It’s hard to tell these days, though it
would have no bearing on this role if
the actor was or was not. Are you dating
anyone?” Damn, where did that come
from? She placed a
hand over her big mouth.
He appeared to be hesitant in answering
since he wasn’t as quick to reply as
he was before. “Dating…mmm…no,” he
finally answered. “However, there is
someone I am very
interested in.”
Charlene didn’t even want to consider
just why his answer disappointed her.
Why wouldn’t a man as sexy and as popular
as Kane not be involved
with
someone?
“As a loyal reader do you have any
recommendations for future books?” she
asked.
“Well, since you asked, more with Asian
males, Japanese in particular
because they seem to make us the least
approachable of the Asian culture and it
isn’t true.” Charlene agreed with that
assessment, her experience in that country
as proof. “Also, there aren’t enough
writers utilizing Asian males as romantic
leads. I suppose because most see us as
technical sidekicks to the hero, or
martial-arts wielding strongmen. In
Blu’s Diary you showed that we could be
as
passionate, loving and screwed-up as any
other man,” he pointed out seriously.
“I confess that I was hesitant to write
Blu as Asian. I didn’t want to offend
anyone because some of his actions were
questionable, though some of it was
from my personal experiences while living
in Japan. When in doubt I asked Abe
Goda, my manager. He helped me big time
to keep Blu’s reaction in certain
situations as realistic as possible.
However, in the end it’s still a fictional piece.”
“Who did you model Corinne, the female
lead, after? I fell in love with her
from the moment she walked into Blu’s
life during high school. She felt very real
to me. Even after Blu abandoned her to chase his ambitions,
she was his biggest
supporter. Her protectiveness of Blu and
her desire to generously give her love
to him unconditionally touched something
in me that I can’t explain.”
Charlene was thankful he couldn’t see her
face as her cheeks stained red at
his compliment.
“Let’s just say Corrine is someone I know
very well.”
“I see.” Kane paused before asking. “Is
there a man in your life that you’ve
modeled Blue’s character
from?”
“There was,” she spoke with as reasonable
a voice she could manage. “But,
he died several years ago.”
“I’m sorry.” He spoke in a gentle tone.
“Unlike Blu’s Diary it seems your
real
life characters didn’t have the happy
ending that you wrote of.”
“Nobody wants a romance to be
that real.” She laughed. “All romances
have
to have a happy ending, don’t
they?”
“In a Japanese love story? You have to be
kidding. It would be surprising if
one of the lovers
didn’t die.”
Charlene exhaled a long sigh in
agreement. “True. As far as my readers are
concerned they demand
a happy ending and…” Her smile faded as sadness
gripped at her heart. “I wish every day
of my life that I could have written a
better ending for the man I used as my
inspiration.”
Kane’s next words shocked her to the
core. “You’re Corrine aren’t you, and
Blu is Jason
James.”
Damn boy was too intuitive for his own
good .
Charlene held the telephone to her ear as
an awkward silence stretched
between them. To make such a confession
would be to revealing into a part of
her life that she had chosen to exorcise
in the telling novel.
But she was even less ready to hear,
“Meet with me.”
“What did you say?” Her voice
squeaked.
“I will make all the arrangements. Come
to Japan. I want you to spend some
time with me, live in my world and get to
know the real me, not the
image. I
definitely want you to know things about
me that no interviews, demos,
headshots—”
“Or life-size posters,” she threw
in.
To her surprise he laughed. “Let me
guess; shirtless, jeans, and in a
downpour?”
You forgot sexy and
wet . “Yes, that’s the one.”
“ Bibitta! How on earth could my manager send
something like that to a
potential employer?” He laughed aloud. “I
apologize for him. Takusa-san forgets
everyone isn’t an enthusiastic fan of my
music. If it embarrasses you to have it,
just throw it out, he won’t
know.”
She could hear that he was truly
embarrassed and she found it unexpected and
endearing. She would have thought any man
who had thousands of women
screaming over him since age twelve would
possess an ego the size of Texas.
“I gave it to my assistant’s niece,” she
lied to save him further
embarrassment. Her eyes trailed to the
poster they were discussing framed and
leaning against the wall where her
assistant Sharon had placed it upon its arrival.
“Also, I didn’t say I wasn’t a
fan.”
Silence yawned and she realized she caught him off guard with
her honesty.
“Will you come to Japan as my
guest?”
Was that hope she heard in his
voice?
“I…I don’t know this is a
bit—”
“Onegai-shimasu, please, what do you have to lose?”
He cajoled. It was
obvious Kane was used to getting his way.
“At the most, you get an all expense
paid holiday to Japan and since I’m in
the midst of touring, I can show you a
more personal side to a few other places
beside Tokyo.”
He really was making the offer
irresistible, she thought. “I don’t know if I can
get away at this time.”
“What about next month?”
“That is only two weeks away.”
“You’re going to have to let them know
soon if you are going to go along with
them hiring me aren’t you?” he
questioned. “So I will make you a deal. If after
spending some time with me you still feel
I can’t do justice to Blu, I will
withdraw myself from the running. That
way there will be no bad feeling
between you and the
producers.”
“You would do that for me even though I
can tell you want this very much?”
“I am a man of my word. If I must wait to
see you, may I call you again,
Charlene? Onegai-shimasu!
Onegai-shimasu!”
He pleaded playfully, a gentle reminder
for her that he was only twenty-four.
“Oh now you’re showing some manners by
asking can you call me when you
shouldn’t have phoned me in the first
place. Not to mention you’re calling me by
my given name before we’ve even met. What
are they teaching the youth of
Japan these days?” Charlene fingered a
micro-braid resting on her shoulder, a
smile on her lips.
“Sorry, but most of my schooling was done
in a boarding school outside of
Japan. But, I can make sure not to
overstep. I can call you Alfred-san instead of
Charlene, and I apologize for being
forward in my call, but not in the purpose.”
“I can’t fault a man for being aggressive
in business.”
“I’ll remember that.”
The huskiness lingered in his tone and
her eyes clouded with visions of the past.
“About my coming to Japan…”
“The offer is open and there is no
obligation, but remember I’m a fan and I
bought all your books without a
discount.” Charlene found herself smiling again.
“Oh, no pressure at all.”
“Honestly, if you don’t want to meet,
allow me to take this time and apologize
for my manager. If I can’t get the role
of Blu because you don’t believe I’m
capable, then I don’t want it at
all.”
Charlene’s lips tightened, how could she
not accept his request. He was
already proving to be more than she had
expected and completely different from
her imagined perception. This alone made
her curious to know more about him.
She heard him clear his throat. Her
fingers twirled the braid in her hand
nervously.
“Can I ask you something, personal?”
Charlene licked her lips wondering
why she was allowing him to get to her.
Hadn’t she already made her decision in
regards to Kane’s abilities to go from
being Japan’s darling to playing this
dark
role, so unlike his persona.
“Yes.” He answered without
hesitation.
“Are you prepared for how much this
career move could change your life, as
you know it? Are you prepared for your
fans to be appalled and the feedback to
be none to positive because of its
content?”
“I have walked the path that others have
chosen for me for so long I’m not
sure who I am any more. Don’t get me
wrong; I’m grateful and very fortunate to
be so well received all over the world.
Nevertheless, I can’t live under the same
restrictions that were given to me when I
was a twelve year old boy.”
Charlene could hear the frustration
weighing heavy in his deep voice.
“I’m a man and I have mental and physical
needs. Yet, because of my
contractual obligations, I must remain
unattached in the public eye.”
“Is there someone in particular that has
caused you to want to change the way
things have been going? Is that your
motivation for wanting to do this project and
change your image?” Charlene realized
that question was too personal and had
nothing to do with anything. Yet, she had
an opportunity so few received in a
lifetime. The ability to speak one on one
with an entertainer they had only
admired from afar, through their
craft.
“I admit recently I have found myself
intrigued by a particular woman, but
it’s not the only motivation I have for
wanting to do Blu’s Diary.”
“Thank you for your honesty.”
“I will be twenty-five in a couple of
months and I find myself thinking of
things that other men my age think of,
such as a future with some one I can love
openly and they love me openly in
return.”
He released a long sigh and she could
almost picture him running a frustrated
hand through his dark hair. She smiled
remember how impulsive and alive she
felt at twenty-five and understood he
should have the right to have the same
freedom, regardless of public opinions.
Times have changed and the young
generation was more accepting of the fact
that entertainment figures wanted to
be sexual and have a family
too.
“I know I must really sound pathetic,
since I do live a charmed life. Right now
I must seem very ungrateful for all the
things I have been blessed with…”
“No…please, I understand what you’re
saying.” Charlene intervened. “You
need someone to love. What is that
saying? ‘What good is success without
someone to share it with?’”
“Exactly.”
She could tell from the way he said that
one word that he was smiling again
and it made her smile too.
“I’m flattered that you would choose my
movie to be the beginning of an
entirely new life for you.” She said
sincerely.
“ Blu’s Diary
has all the elements I need to break from this pop mode into
the
rock mode, which will give me more
creative and personal freedom. I’m willing
to do whatever is necessary to make it a
success for…the both of us.”
The intimacy of his chosen words should
of shocked her, yet he’d implied
them before and each time it caused a
quivering response in a place Charlene
didn’t want to explore
further.
“You…you know you took a chance of
pissing me off, by calling me this
way.” Charlie commented. “I will admit it took guts and it
seems like a ballsy
thing that Blu would do to get the gig he
wanted.”
“Excuse me, what did you say about
my…balls?”
Charlie grimaced, blushed and smiled into
the phone at his deliberate
misunderstanding because his English was
flawless. Another unexpected quality
he possessed.
“I’m teasing you.” He saved her from
further embarrassment. “I understood
what you were saying.” Kane chuckled.
“But, you’re smiling, aren’t you?”
Did he have such a sexy voice at the
beginning of this conversation or was
she imagining it had deepened even more.
Charlie cleared her throat staring once
more at the poster of Kane. Her fingers
smoothed over the soft material of her
skirt from the top of her thigh to the
hem. He really was sexy, mysterious
and…young. She hurriedly removed her hand
from the trail it was taking up her
inner thigh.
Her breath came hot and heavy as she
fought off the sensations of longing that
started at her feminine core. It had been
so long, and there was something about
his voice that…
“Charlene? I hear you breathing, so I
know you are still there. Will you come
to Japan?”
Admittedly, he peaked more than her
curiosity for she wanted to see him in
his element. It would give her the
opportunity to see life through the eyes of a
pop star and who knows, it could be
research for a future novel.”
“Okay,” she said softly.
“Okay…”
“I will come to Japan and meet
you.”
“Honto-ni, really? Awesome!”
Charlene cringed at the sound of
anticipation in his voice. What was she
doing? She didn’t want to give him false
hope. Still, she couldn’t help but feel
thrilled by his excitement.
“I haven’t said you got the
part.”
“No, but you will.” He assured her. “May
I have your cell number too?”
“My cell number?”
“Yes, so I can call you from my private
line and you will have my number.”
He reasoned. “As soon as you can free
your calendar, call me, and I will take
care of everything
personally.”
“I don’t…that won’t be necessary, you can
reach me at this number and leave
any messages with my assistant, Sharon,
if I’m not in.”
“I understand. How about I do this the
old fashion way and I just tell you my
private number and you can call me,
whenever.”
Was that disappointment she heard in his
voice?
“That probably will be best.” Charlene
stated writing down the phone number
he supplied on the inside of his file
lying on top of her desk. “I’ll get back with
you as soon as I can clear my
schedule.”
“I’ll be waiting.” He paused as if he
wanted to say more, but all he said was,
“Sayonara, Charlene.”
“Good bye, Kane.”
She held the phone long after the line went dead,
her mind deep in thought.
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